Recovery Day 22 ~ Saturday at he Clubhouse

Had my third PT session yesterday, making progress slowly. Able to walk without support from a cane but have to favor the leg a bit as it is still weak on the outer side of the new joint. Began the reset protocol on Monday have struggled some with the caloric restrictions, it has created some cravings and it feels like the stress and anxiety of “being strict” has once again found its way back.

I was reflecting on the week this morning and the idea of a “enjoyment index” crossed my mind. I am thinking about a way to gauge the fulfillment of a given week’s worth of living. When I am living in a restrictive mindset the lack of freedom drives down the enjoyment index. Taking Henry for a slice was marred by the illegal feeling of cheating, thus diminishing the overall enjoyment. Guilt free freedom is the mode that appeals most.

In what ways can I have it all?

I want to get good sleep, remaining active in all things, eat well with a focus on enjoyment, exercise to build capabilities, be creative, pursue adventure and challenge myself.

There is a restlessness that I believe is coming from my lack of mobility. I need to be patient and let my healing progress naturally. There will be time later to get after it!